I recently discovered the beautiful music of Leona Lewis. What I didnt know is how close one of her songs would touch me.

‘Better With Time’…

My husband and I recently lost a close friend to suicide. My husband’s best friend. And my husband was the one to find him. My husband just woke up Thursday - new year’s day. And suddenly knew where to find him. He had been missing since the Sunday before. Why was it meant to be that he was not found until that time we will never know.

I had so many things I was going to write about Tim. My feelings and thoughts. But now I just feel blank.

I guess I started this post because I have been absent from my websites, and my computer in general and all my internet connections and responsibilities and absent to all my friends as well.
I came down with shingles last month which was horrible and painful enough. Then when I’m just starting to get over them. This happens. I just cry and cry. I just can’t believe it.

I do appoligize for my absence. I never thought I would ever neglect my online duties. It’s just been one thing after another. And it feels like shingles is coming back again. I’m really really debating on taking a break online. As well as a vacation from work to regain my health.

I don’t want this post to be about me though.

I want it to be about Tim. His name was Tim Johnson. I just tear up even mentioning his name in past tense.

I didnt know him extremely well. I know he was easy to be around. Funny, friendly, and someone who I wanted to get to know better. Someone I was looking forward to getting to know better and hanging out with. I’m not a social butterfly. But one of my goals for my life was to be more socialable. I was looking forward to hanging out w/ my husband and his best friend this summer. BBQing, and just hanging out laughing and enjoying life.

My husband and Tim had a trip planned to Washington for this summer. Tim just couldnt believe that I would let Joe go off for a whole week away from home w/out me. *lol*!! But they were looking forward to their trip to Washington for stergeon fishing and crabbing. And I was looking forward to hearing about it afterwards.

Tim and Joe had been spending alot of time pheasant hunting lately. My husband has never been a hunter of any sort! *lol*!!! But he really enjoyed the walking, even though he never did get a bird *lol*

Joe and Tim hit it off from their common ‘washington’ bond. Joe is from Washington. He and I lived there for 12 years. Raised our kids there. And Tim lived there at a time also. Ended up that they both knew of all the same places. Had been to all the same places. Had all these shared memories, but had never met each other until both living in Wyoming. And working at the same workplace. They just hit it off immediatly. Like they had known each other all their lives. Even though it had only actually been a year and half. Some things just can’t be explained…

On that thought - I leave you in peace Tim …
I’m glad our paths crossed

=)

Good Morning everyone

oh brother I’m so silly.. now my nose is all stuffy before I go to work because I was crying. *lol* silly! I didnt really want to take my meds for my shingles before work because I have 7 miles to drive. It’s dark, snowy, deer are out this time of year! You get the jist. *lol* Oh, all of the meds I have to take make me all drowsy and drunk. Staying home from until they are gone is not an option.

But oh my gosh! The pain, the burning, feeling like my nerves are on the outside of my face being rubbed w/ sandpaper or something is just too much to ask of me. So, I ended up taking them here at home. And it just burns so much. Feels like my forhead and right side of my face are on fire.

I just want this to be over with. The blisters are healing. Still have alot of itching, burning, the prickling tingling, and the stabbing pains… ugh!

They say you live and learn. Its true. I have a new understanding and empathy for my residents at work. Especially for ones that are always saying ouch to every little thing and who I know have had shingles.

I think I should go back to the doctor and talk about all the symptoms I’m still having. Make sure its normal. Plus I was given a trial of Lyrica for the pain, prickly feeling. And if I liked it, I can get a prescription. Of course I was not thinking ahead of time. Well actually I was thinking the symptoms would disappear quickly w/ all these meds. But anyway, here it is the weekend. and right b4 the holiday and I only have 1 more lyrica left for the day.

I might even look into seeing if there is something stronger. Even taking that yesterday the pain was AWEFUL at work. It was not nearly that terrible for that long of a period here at home.

I also am concerned about getting addicted to any meds. Going through w/drawls is NOT any fun at all!

okay, time to warm up my car sweeties.

Stay Warm and full of joy! – Jewelie Jules xoxo :o*

omgosh! It’s rough working with this shingles! It’s like its 50 x worse at work than it is at home!!

I think i need to go back and talk to the doctor some more too.

2 more days to go.. wooohooo! Then off for 2 days to finish up my christmas stuff…

do you like my gorjuss free monthly signatures?

Have you checked out my gorjuss forum I recently opened with
my best friend Tanya?

Well come on over girlfriends. What ya waiting for *giggles*

                        - All Things Gorjuss -

The forum is free. It is not a phpbb forum or anything like that.
I have been a member at Delphi Forums since about 2001 or 2002.
A basic account is free. I hope you will peek in and visit us…

my sigtag by me
                 soon available at Cute n’ Charming Graphics

                      Graphics purchased at: ALP

wooohoo!!!! I just luuuuv the new version of wordpress!!

the simplicity and the look are gr8! I think the new icons with everything look
great too.

I tried it out locally on my computers and had fun designing a new custom theme.

Well now I’m off to bed…

                                my sigtag by me
                 soon available at Cute n’ Charming Graphics

                      Graphics purchased at: ALP

today I updated the members area with some new tubes.

DollieMart - Isabella ChristmasCharme

Dee’s Doodles - Hikari add ons, Medieval Bella

Faery Charm Originals - added a flower, and christmas holly n berries

and I am still working on more christmas/winter goodies!

=)

I have a very exciting announcement!! I AM MOVING TO DAYSHIFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

W O O   H O O!

woohoo!!! I finally made days! *giggles* I’ve been waiting for a year and half for there to be room for me on dayshift and for nightshift to be covered and staffed up enough for me to leave nightshift.

And it is finally happening.

I have been on nights for a little over 2 years.

So, i’m really really excited. This will mean lots of good changes in my life. Both outside the computer and online…

((((wooohooo))))

‘ All is fine in 2009 ‘

=)

my daughter Nicole and I are off on the big walmart shopping extravaganza. *giggles*
The big monthly shopping trip…

*ugh*

We have to be back early to get the kids out of school though.

Hopefully I will still have enough time and energy to do some creating and updating of my sites though…

Hello everyone!

oh my!! The autumn winds have blown a breath a fresh air right into Faery Charm!

Members area is coming along nicely. I’ve been adding my original outlines little by little. As well as wallpaper I have made (past and present). I just added a new tube set I colored (lilykins angel) - outlines are from Thalia at Paint My Dreams. I love how they turned out. And I’ve been waiting a long long time for her to make those outlines available to us. It is the doll used on her ‘memwebs’ image. I just fell in love with it right away *giggles* And couldnt wait to try coloring it myself a bit…

I also now have amember installed for joining Faery Charm membersarea.

I’ve been working on a purchaseware section for the main area here at Faery Charm as well.

You will find signature tags, tubes(all tubes in members area also), and I’ve started on my
As-Is lineart collections too. I have my 1st one up, which is Winter. There are 34 lines in that pack for
8.00 U.S. or 12.00 U.S. with tube license.

Hugs & Joy!

=)

Well it has certainly been a while since I’ve updated my freebies page.
I am wanting to expand on it. I have added a new sigtag, wallpaper,
and Incrediletter.
They all match.
They are of the gorjuss angel below…

I hope to add many more…