It Will Get Better With Time…
January 6th, 2009I recently discovered the beautiful music of Leona Lewis. What I didnt know is how close one of her songs would touch me.
‘Better With Time’…
My husband and I recently lost a close friend to suicide. My husband’s best friend. And my husband was the one to find him. My husband just woke up Thursday - new year’s day. And suddenly knew where to find him. He had been missing since the Sunday before. Why was it meant to be that he was not found until that time we will never know.
I had so many things I was going to write about Tim. My feelings and thoughts. But now I just feel blank.
I guess I started this post because I have been absent from my websites, and my computer in general and all my internet connections and responsibilities and absent to all my friends as well.
I came down with shingles last month which was horrible and painful enough. Then when I’m just starting to get over them. This happens. I just cry and cry. I just can’t believe it.
I do appoligize for my absence. I never thought I would ever neglect my online duties. It’s just been one thing after another. And it feels like shingles is coming back again. I’m really really debating on taking a break online. As well as a vacation from work to regain my health.
I don’t want this post to be about me though.
I want it to be about Tim. His name was Tim Johnson. I just tear up even mentioning his name in past tense.
I didnt know him extremely well. I know he was easy to be around. Funny, friendly, and someone who I wanted to get to know better. Someone I was looking forward to getting to know better and hanging out with. I’m not a social butterfly. But one of my goals for my life was to be more socialable. I was looking forward to hanging out w/ my husband and his best friend this summer. BBQing, and just hanging out laughing and enjoying life.
My husband and Tim had a trip planned to Washington for this summer. Tim just couldnt believe that I would let Joe go off for a whole week away from home w/out me. *lol*!! But they were looking forward to their trip to Washington for stergeon fishing and crabbing. And I was looking forward to hearing about it afterwards.
Tim and Joe had been spending alot of time pheasant hunting lately. My husband has never been a hunter of any sort! *lol*!!! But he really enjoyed the walking, even though he never did get a bird *lol*
Joe and Tim hit it off from their common ‘washington’ bond. Joe is from Washington. He and I lived there for 12 years. Raised our kids there. And Tim lived there at a time also. Ended up that they both knew of all the same places. Had been to all the same places. Had all these shared memories, but had never met each other until both living in Wyoming. And working at the same workplace. They just hit it off immediatly. Like they had known each other all their lives. Even though it had only actually been a year and half. Some things just can’t be explained…
On that thought - I leave you in peace Tim …
I’m glad our paths crossed
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